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Name: Teejay
Country: Philippines
Metro: Manila
Birthday: 11/1/1986
Gender: Male
Interests: God. Country. Family. Girlfriend. Friends. etc. blablabla.. yadayadayada..
Expertise: cOmPutAh, MiNd cOntrOL.. hehehe!!
Occupation: Legal
Industry: Hospitality
Message: message meEmail: email me
Yahoo:  jaylai27
Member Since:
4/5/2004
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| High Times Effect
Every morning I see the sun,
but i dont need the sun i need you
Every morning I pretend to have fun,
but I regret everyday without you.
Simple things in life is all we need
but I ask myself and I agreed
ill give up everything including weed
'cause my heart is all yours to keep
As I stare into the unphatomable sky
I can never help myself and ask "WHY?"
I may never have you back and that I know
but my heart will forever wonder in the whitest of snow
I waste my time writing this stupid poem in this dark cold room
Endlessly wondering if you would come back home.
To the girl im dedicating this poem to,
Please come back and say you love me too.
I was so wasted when I wrote this poem
in case you're wondering whats up with the title.
When me and my girlfriend broke up and I was so fucking depressed.
Everyday without her was miserable. Everyday All I think about is her.
When I'm with my friends, I do have fun but deep inside im sad.
I am happy but sad and incomplete at the same time. How Ironic?
Forever is a word that we can simply lookup in the dictionary, but
sometimes we cant help but wonder if there is such a thing called
"Forever".
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| Today is another day I have to face without her. It gets hard specially
when the feeling of loneliness strucks spontaneously. Yesterday we went
to Pulp SummerSlam.. Yah it was bomb but I asked myself... Am I happy?
I told my friend that I would be clean for 1 whole year starting
yesterday and guess what Day 1 was a success. When we where sitting on
the ground a group of girls sat down beside us. Yung isa inalok pako ng
Peewee eh hahaha!!! I was trying not to be rude as possible because i
really aint in the mood for gals ryt now. Sabi nung isa "tatlo lang
kayo magkakasama?" tapos Sabi ko naman "Oo bakit?" sabi nya "Wala lang
kami din eh tatlo lng" sabi ko 2loy "Anong gusto mong gawin ko?". Yah I
know how rude so I kept quiet nlng and bahala sila sa buhay nila. Then
nagpakilala na sila.. ayan na.. tsktsk.. sbi ko name ko joseph..^_^..
for them not to bug me that much anymore I asked them "Anong Oras Uwi
niYo?" One of them replied "Hanggang Umaga kami d2 eh!!" And I replied
"Ahh.. kasi ako hanggang 12 lng eh hnihntay kasi ako ng asawa't anak ko
sa bahay walang kasama". Ayun finally that strucked them i think I
heard one of them say that delikado yan may asawa na.. hehe.. Most of
my friends told me that I cant possibly pull this shit off.. "1 whole
year without girls?!??^?@^ Are You F*cking Crazy?" yAn prang ganyan ung
reaction nila kaso tagalog ehe.. Why Am I doing this? Im doing this
becoz of this girl I met. Yah she's sweet,Cute,Talented,Makulet and I
knew back then that she's the one I want to take home to my mom and say
that "Ma, eto na magiging daughter-in-law mo". Upto now ganun pa rin
nafefeel ko.. I was supposed to write this sa diary ko kaso I cant seem
to find it namisplaced ata nung naglipat ng mga gamit.. I just have to
release this feeling inside of me.. Parang gusto sumigaw ng malakas na
malakas para lang malabas toh.. I know its hard letting go of someone..
within a year i will wait for her to come back but if she wont come
back na.. atleast i've proven something to myself that life is all
about taking risk and in every risk there is a lesson learned and a
tear shed. I know wala naman nagbabasa ng xanga ko eh hehe kya okay
lang everyone knows na sinara ko na toh so no one would check this
out!!! HAHAHA!!! ^_^
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| I always thought that it takes the whole world to teach me my lesson
coz I know thats how hard I was, but I was wrong.. it took a girl to change
my whole being and molded me into someone new. But now shes gone and
theres no more reason for me to be this way. Its time for me to go
back. Maybe I'll find my peace within myself again. hopefully. Farewell
to the loving,caring,sweet Teejay and Welcome back to the Tj that some
loved and some hated but THIS IS WHAT I CHOSE TO BE AND THANKS TO YOU
IT WILL BE MY DESTINY.
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| R-esult of being stupid
E-ndless thinking of what might have been
G-reatest mistake
R-unning away
E-xtraordinary feeling of depression and self pity
T-xt txt nalang sh*t sorry.. tanga ko talaga 
regret.. a word with a sh*t load of meaning but breaks down to only one thing.. stupidity..
coz i know.. coz i feel.. that i could learn to hate just like you.. -
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